Whatever and Me

Hi Everyone,

This weeks blog is a little self-reflection.  I first posted this in the days I frequented MySpace. I hope the literary references and musical references won’t be too confusing.

I do hope some of you enjoy it and if you’ve read it before, I hope there is still something to enjoy again. 🙂

Next week will be something completely new!

Wishing you all a bright and blessed week ahead.

Tikarma. xxxx

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Whatever and Me.

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Shelley never meant much to me.

Not as much as he should’ve done.

Too pre-occupied with irreverence,

With the Wilde

That captured a part of me

That had not yet language to speak.

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So I played my guitar.

 I scribbled, I scratched, I drew.

Threw myself “out there”

To crash back with a tome of an

Inferno

On my lap.

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I wanted a piano lesson.

I sang in spite of his begging me not to.

I tried.

I fell on my face and cried

To look upon a question mark.

Reality or the Illusion?

My choice to make.

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I lamented over a black clad Jesus.

Borrowed faces to call my own.

Wore everyone’s shoes without asking.

I left ‘Thankyou’ playing though quietly on the stereo.

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I sat in front of a microphone with my own inferno’s encased.

I heard my voice.

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I haven’t stopped to looked back.

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I may never be Shelley.

My wit may never be Wilde.

Tennyson, long ago I left him behind.

Reaching a point of mindless abandon.

Where I’ll laugh really loud.

Content

Within my vein of melancholy

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 Content with

Whatever and me.

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© 2010 Tikarma Vodicka

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10 thoughts on “Whatever and Me

  1. This made me smile, Tikarma. It basically proves you are a true artist. We all try to achieve a Wilde, but only Wilde is Wilde, and though our wit may not measure up to his, or our deep fires might not measure up to Shelley’s, whatever and me is good enough. I so enjoy coming here and reading and reflecting. You do not have to be anybody but yourself. You are more than good enough, especially for Ethel and I. You do not have to live within your vein of melancholy, except when it helps you reach for some of the stars you have shown evidence of in this blog. This is a wonderful relection. You are who you are, and Ethel and I, at the very least, along with more than a few others, celebrate that. We think you’re wonderful.

    1. Hi Thomas,

      Thank you very much for your kind response. I’m very moved that yourself and Ethel enjoy my poetry. I very much appreciate the work yurself and Ethel share. I have found much inspiration in Ethel’s artworks aprticularly.
      I’m very glad too that this poem was able to give you a smile.
      I think for myself this poem very much represented an inner confidence that I’m good enough for me and that’s what matters most not whether I measure up outside standards. Finding our voice as writers can be a long path but I think a rewarding one when we finally find our place.
      Thank you again very much. I do appreciate your taking the time out to visit my blog.

      Tikarma. xx

  2. Hi Tikarma,

    Good poem. I’ve never read Any Oscar Wilde, but I do see a lot of his quotes around. I have gotten into a lot of Robert Frost, Walt Whitman, and my favorite Langston Hughes. Am I showing my American side? LOL…I’m so cheesy sometimes. 😀

    This is a wonderful poem. Some poets I can relate to and others I can’t like Sylvia Plath…

    I hope you’re having a great beginning to your week so far.

    *HUGS*

    1. Hi Diana,

      Thanks very much. I’m glad you liked the poem. I shall have to look into Walt Whitman I’ve never read any of his work. I am a little familiar though with Robert frost and Langston Hughes.
      I think you’ve hit the nail on the head, we’re drawn to what we relate to and that in turn has the capacity to inspire us.
      I’m not that big on Slyvia Plath either. I do relate to a lot fo her senitments and that’s largely the reason why. I get very depressed reading her work so I find it best to read her sparingly.

      My week is is looking up after a bit of a downer.
      I hope you’re week is going well and you’re feeling much positive energy!
      Thanks again!
      (((BIG HUGS)))

  3. I am just wild about Wilde. I’m sorry, so sorry to to that here in these the prestigious halls of Tikarma. Forgive me, although it is true it is nevertheless gauche. I have trouble with many of the greats,” but Wilde was not in that noblesse. We do what we have to do to eck out our own voice in whatever form it eventually takes. It took me decades of painful self-discovery to finally arrive where I should have always been in from of a typewriter, then a word processor, and now a computer writing horrible prose, poetry and novels, until I stand (sit) before you today with a smidgen of everything I have seen and heard, failure and winner, about as happy as I know how to be. I have finally found where I am to be. You said all that when you wrote, ” Content with / Whatever and me.”

    1. Hi Jerry,

      *LOL* ohhh it had to be done! Thank you! 🙂
      One of the reasons I like Wilde is his lack on pretention unlike so many others. His work is a lot more relatable and accessable than many other “greats” I’ve found.
      I am so glad for you that you have found that contentment as a writer and in writing. As I said above to Thomas it can be a long journey, but your contentment shows just how worth it the journey can be.
      your poetry and prose is far from horrible. I find it most moving at times and at others very entertaining. Your writing reflects a life well lived without needing to fall to vauge terms and half sentances to sound fancy. To reach out and touch another in plain speaking is sometimes I think a greater talent.

      I still think I can improve personally. There’s still a few rungs on the writing ladder for me to climb, but ultimately I’m content. 🙂

      Thank you again for taking the time to visit my blog. I do very much appreciate it.

      Tikarma. xx

  4. Hi Tikarma,

    I read this as it passed through my inbox and just had to drop in to tell you about the big smile which is on my face after reading it!! 🙂

    I love the line –
    “I left ‘Thankyou’ playing though quietly on the stereo.”

    And of course the last two lines.

    I can relate to the whole poem because I too am
    ” Content with

    Whatever and me.”

    Arohanui
    (((BSH)))
    and K’sOTC 🙂
    David
    xoxox

    1. Hi David,

      Thank you very much for taking the time out to drop by. I appreciate it. 🙂
      I’m really glad this poem was able to give you a big smile! 🙂

      I’m surprised “Reality or the illusion” didn’t catch you *cheeky grin* You’ve been a very significant part of my path towards “whatever and me” 😀

      I think it’s a good feeling and a good place to be personally, content. 🙂
      I’m very happy for you that you have found that contentment in your writing.

      Thanks again. It’s very good to see you around WordPress. 🙂

      Arohanui
      (((BSH)))
      and K’sOTC 🙂
      Tikarma
      xoxoxo

  5. Hi Tikarma,

    As you know, I just adore this poem. It is about reaching that point of contentment with your own talents. That moment when you look back on yourself and realise what others do. That you do have something worth giving the world. It is a great moment, and one you should revel in. You have such a great talent!

    And I do love all those references. I suppose because many of them were such a big influence on me. Especially Wilde and Morrisson. They showed us that we could be whatever we should choose to be. And I do adore the photo too! And of course, that wonderful title that just says it all!

    Thank you so much for sharing this again and making me smile.

    With all the love in my heart, always and forever yours,

    Jamie

    ♥♥♥

    1. Hi Jamie,

      Thank you very much for your lovely response. I’m really glad you enjoyed reading this poem again.
      You are too kind, but then I suppose part of being able to reach a contentment in one’s creative pursuits is being able to pursue them and to that end you’ve been instrumental in my reaching a place of contentment with your unbending support. ♥
      It is something I cherish and appreciate.♥
      I think too we need those stages of emulation and uncertainty. They do help forge the path for us to discovering ourselves and who we want to be creatively. They help define our voices. 🙂
      That moment when we do look back to see how far we’ve come. It’s a good feeling and one that couldn’t exisit in the same way without all those wobbly steps prior. 🙂

      I’m very glad you enjoyed all the references and reflecting on how they too have influenced you. I do agree with your sentiments.
      I’m glad you like the photo as well. 🙂
      Thank you for making me smile with your smile and sharing the creative journey with me.

      Yours always in love
      ♥♥♥♥
      Tikarma
      xooxox

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