This weeks blog is my new painting ‘While I Was Sitting’. Below are a few photos and my art diary about the painting for those who are interested in the process.
I hope some of you will enjoy this piece. 🙂
While I Was Sitting
31 cm x 40.5 cm (12″ x 16″)
Detail Photo of ‘While I Was Sitting’
Detail photo of ‘While I Was Sitting’
Detail photo of ‘ While I Was Sitting’.
Art Diary Monday 27th April, 2015. While I Was Sitting.
This painting is a mediative piece. Sitting is metaphor for a period of time passed. The journey here is an internal wandering.
Leaves tumble, fall and grow, flowers to bloom and others that now nurture future potential.
The leaves represent steps in life that lead us to a turning point, a change in direction or a returning to self after a detour. The flowers to bloom and the seed pods represent all the future possibilities, what is still unknown.
The journey in this piece is finishing the sentence. While I was sitting…?
Never has a painting been so apt for me.
I drew this first as a design while attending at the gallery when I first started there. I sat myself down during a quiet period and mentally started a sentence, “While I was sitting…This design emerged as an ending to that sentence.
I started attending at the gallery as a way of overcoming my anxiety that came to consume me after my long period of ill health. I pushed myself to do something I had wanted to do since I moved to Strathalbyn, join the gallery and be part of the community. With palpating heart and shaking like a leaf, that’s exactly what I did!
The design was initially a mentally marker for what I had achieved to be attending at the gallery…it didn’t end that way. It never goes the way I plan. My art is very much it’s own identity and will tell it’s story and mine when it’s ready!
I showed Jamie my design ‘While I was Sitting’ when he came home in the evening.
Jamie so loved the design he promptly went out and bought me a canvas and said to paint it…please… 🙂
So I began to paint it.
Somewhere around a third of the way I stopped and there the painting sat, growing dull and dusty and reminding me every time I looked at it of what I was not doing.
So much has happened in the past 2 years. In the majority they were good things, but at the end I was left feeling like an idiot. There’s nothing like a metaphorical slap across the face to bring home some perspective.
I was left sitting, thinking “What am I doing?” and after much thought I had my needed epiphany. It is time to move on and time to get back to my studio.
I believe everything happens for a reason. Not because of anything spiritual or mystical. Our minds are wondrous creations. I think we set events in motion subconsciously or consciously through avoidance and procrastination. We set up road blocks because we’re not ready. We only come to opportunities or life changes when we’re ready for them. Coincidences emerge around us as we overcome our apprehensions, gain confidence, let go of past hurts. Finally, rather than doing constant U-turns we take the road that leads to life’s crossroads and we know which way we want to turn. We’re ready to be someone new, experience a new direction in life, or take a challenge of new responsibilities.
It was meant to happen, because you made it happen.
This painting hovered in my periphery, waiting, sitting patiently until I was ready. It marks my artistic crossroad. Choosing not to have a drama but re-focusing my energy into the positive direction of my art and in my journey of being an artist.
While I was sitting I overcame my fear of unknowns.
Grew in confidence and self possession.
Discovered the adult in me able to take responsibility, commit to obligations.
While I was sitting I began to be who I want to be.
Fought with the adult, responsible in her obligations.
While I was sitting I decided to be responsible
obligate myself to the path in life I need to walk.
While I was sitting I chose to finish what I had begun. 🙂
While I was sitting…? How would you finish the sentence?
Alternatively, this painting can just be a nice abstract image of leaves falling with some decorative seed pods. 🙂
It is both for me a life lesson as well as a piece I enjoying looking at. Either way I am very happy to have this piece finished and see the painting finally realised.
I am also very excited now to be able to move forward with many new projects.
The first of those will be five new flower portraits. They’ll be the subject of next weeks blog.
Wishing everyone a productive, creative and inspiring week to come.